The Day I Knew

When I was ten years old, on a cold January day, I suffered an asthma attack.

Looking back, I wonder what the real cause was.

On my page I tell you how I was treated like dirt in my family, right?

Do any of you realize that the lungs are part of the emotional proccess?

So the story continues....It was a Sunday and all the equipment my mom had, inhaler, a nebulizer for the home did not work.  I was rushed into the ER, oxygen mask and all.  I ended up staying at the hospital.  I would tell the full story, but this is a laptop and I'm bending over.

What a pain, perhaps it was almost a good way to kill myself.......I mean wasn't my time over?  No and No, the point was completely different.

For 10 years I believed I was dirt, I believed everything they said to me that I was.  Then I had a revelation.   I was surrounded by great leaders, people who had watched over me, angels, Jesus, Gandhi, you name it and I'd say yes.  They came to me one night that week and told me to let go.  Let go I did.  I freed myself from the putdown crap they fed me.   And I walked the path to understand that I was not alone, that there were far more people out there who really cared and knew me better than my family.  That includes Obi, JaBuddha, Ian and everyone else here.  You were all there.

So I wasn't filled to the brim with "dirty" emotions that made me weak at heart.  I was given a chance. 

Thank you all for helping me survive my childhood!